Feeling the shingle's fire

I first got shingles my senior year of high school. It started by my lip underneath onto my chin (following the nerve there) itching like crazy. I thought I had gotten a bug bite but there was no mark. Within a few hours-the next day blisters came up & the race was on. Since then, aged 18 through now, i've had shingles almost always on my face at least 30+ times. I now can feel them coming on, the stress bringing the fiery itching & burning until the blisters appear. I know this bout is brought on by my weakened immune system after spinal tap & spinal shots, & this horrid moving worries. Last night as I felt the shingles silently making their way to the surface, I let the tears come as needed, for holding them in would only further their strength.

 

Words with really smart friends

I love any kind of word games, & have several on my iPad. Spell tower, Word Welder, etc. I am even halfway good at some of them...but Words With Friends, not so much. After getting up, goofing & sitting in my dr's office to deal with the shingles on my bum, blood test checks, & a thousand other hings with my 6 month check-up, dad saw that the waiting time would be hours & I was so uncomfortable that we rescheduled. Shingles be damned. Got home & was still awake when a friend started a game with me. I had gotten the game on sale months ago but hadn't really played, & had only played like twice if that. As an ex-English teacher & linguistics masters student, I feel a need to seem half competent, but I'm really not. I didn't even realize you could make 2 words on one play until my much smarter friend I'd it today. They must think 'her meds must be impeding her thought process' or if I play someone who doesn't know me think they are playing a 12 year old. Embarrassing? Yes. Beaten? Badly. Fun? Yes, & the sad little competitive me tries so hard & am on a child's level, & that's actually insulting to kids. I'll keep playing though, & maybe one day beat a 7 year old.

 

 

The red dots of rage

After being an on again, off again haver of shingles, tonight I found them on my ass. Lovely. I have my 6 month primary doctor appointment tomorrow, so at least I'll get meds, & I can make the red dots of pain pretty. ;)

 

Grief

 Right now I'm grieving, for things that are happening, & things that are to come, like losing the best 2 doctors I've ever had. & leaving my 2 pets & their graves. I haven't laughed in days, & I can't stop crying. But hey, these pics won some awards. 

 

 

 

Help me OBI 8-ball, you're my only hope

 I'm exhausted. I'm damaged. I feel I'm done. Cleaned out Chai bunny's litter box last night & the simple act left me so bad I just had to drop the heavy bag in the hall, & barely made it to my bed before my back collapsed. On days like this I just don't know. & I don't even know what I don't know. Xxx

 

Bunny, shingles, & lungs

 Since I moved in here 5 years ago, I developed (probably due to an allergy) a horrible chronic, deep, body-wracking cough. Last night I felt like my upper back was hurting...& long story short, we realized my lungs were so congested & stopped up that simply put, my lungs hurt. I have an appt next Monday with an ENT, to figure out if there is more I can do to keep this cough at bay. I was treated for pneumonia in February, & it feels the same. Stupid lungs, breathing in fresh air! ;)

My shingles are back on my thigh, & they are so tiny but managing to get a pic today to confirm was a great accomplishment. Wanna see? 

 

 Sweet Chai bunny honestly, it's happened & has been witnessed, will thump when I'm asleep but my lungs/breathing are raspy. She is, we are convinced, magic. She has been on high alert as my coughing that (scares mom's cat downstairs) doesn't really scare her but keeps her hopping away as her giant ears are being split with my decibel raising coughing. She also will wake herself up thumping, will continue softly thumping as she makes sure whatever she was dreaming about is gone. That bunny keeps me smiling even in the absolute worst situations. I'd be lost without her. 

 

Thank god I'm back!

After having to update & change blog apps, I am here. Ugh...but yay.

I was shocked to see I had gained some new readers, & felt awful as I hadn't checked that blog email to see their comments, so my new friends, thanks so much!

I've been really down lately, & shingles on my opposite side of the norm showed up again today, same exact place. Just another bump in the road...but damn how I hate those bumps. There is a game called Bumpy Road & every time I see it I just have to laugh. I really need to download it sometime & see if I could beat it! Right, I'll shut up & get to the pics ;)

An awfully good not so bad day

Here is part of my day chronicled in pics.



Riding to the dr at 7:43 AM.



Dad by my side as I was hunched over, trying not to cry-listening to Wye Oak, Sarah Jarosz, & others.



After dropping off prescriptions, I waited in the car while dad did some grocery shopping, & even surprised me with fried okra...only in the south can you procure that at 10 AM! Love fried ocra...


Entertaining myself while waiting for dad. Thank you iPod & great music!



Looking down & taking my mind to Brazil, the best vacation ever (where I got & designed this aquamarine ring).



Looking in the rearview mirror watching so I could unlock the car for dad, & my surprise okra!



Loving that having my rabbit reading pocket watch necklace, we could time & not get to the pharmacy to early. Dad said if the dr had some answers & got me on meds & it rained it would be a great day...didn't rain, but otherwise, even under the circumstances, he & I had a really good day. : )

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