For a chronically sick person, we all know that whether it's physical or emotional, etc there is the overall picture. Pretty parts, confusing parts, abstract bits, things you somewhat understand & some that are baffling, but if you look at the close up, there is so much submerged below the surface. Much darker, supportive, hidden parts. My hidden things are so humiliating. So embarrassing. They make me feel like I'm 7 yet 87 at the same time, yet I'm no Benjamin Button. As open as I am there are a few things I keep deep, deep down for fear of the reveal of some things that happen often & feel so crushing.