2 days & Zoe

It's 2 days until we drive away from this house. It never felt like home except for my parents being here, but nowhere else did either. The Czech Republic felt more like home than here-I at least met people & made fantastic friends, went out, etc.

 

Zoe cat died Feb. 1st, 2011 & I still haven't been in the backyard to see her. With the emotional state I'm in, how on earth-this solar system will I say goodbye?

 

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Day 25-memory from another view-#HAWMC/WEGO health

The girl sits on the bed-naked-as any clothing that touches her skin feels like an attack of needles. She has an ice pack propped up on a pillow placed carefully so it covers two inflamed areas on her lower back of the spinal shots from earlier that day. Her left sciatic nerve starting in her back & radiating down the back of her leg & the top & bottom of her foot feels as though an electric prod combined with a vice is irritating the nerve constantly. It never lets up. Her left hip is so tender to the touch she hasn't slept on it-hasn't even leaned over on it-for the past 7 years. She tries to watch tv to take her focus off of the pain yet can't focus. She switches to Netflix on her iPad, trying in vain to find anything that can help focus her damaged brain's pain center elsewhere. After starting & stopping at least 3 different movies she finally settles on one. Tears start falling onto the screen. Beside her the bed softly indents as her house rabbit, Chai, as carefully as she can jumps up on the bed. Chai starts licking the sheets which in bunny means 'deep affection'. She puts her front paws up on the girl's left shoulder & touches noses with her. She barely licks her arm, but as it feels like acid she stops & hops around in front & licks the bedspread, pillows, & any clothing on the bed. As she examines the girl one last time she gives final licks & slowly jumps off the bed, flops down next to one of her stuffed rabbit friends as the girl smiles.

 

Waiting room

Views of my dr appointment getting sciatic nerve & spinal shots






Never without my reading rabbit pocket watch or headphones & iPod



Spent most of the time slouched over staring at the floor & drowning myself in music



Over...with pain meds adjusted higher (many thanks to my nurse!) & taking this pic almost killed me. Posing hurts!

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Location:Dr office/car

Wants & desires

Me, sleeping almost solid for 2 days. My idea of hell.


In bed, actually enjoying myself is something I can only imagine, & pantomime.



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Location:Bed

Eyes: guide to the soul & all that

My eyes, more green than hazel, say many things. I often really hope that my messages are getting read, but when the loud woman is the waiting room doesn't turn off her annoying ring tone, I assume my msg didn't quite get her.


Lately, my eyes are just saying 'nature, if you don't send some freaking rain my way to get this yellow s!#t out of my radius, I'm going to quit recycling' as they pour allergy tears. Ugh.







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Location:Mirror