dad on the other side

every single time I got to the Dr for anything, dad drives me and sits with me-sometimes for hours as we wait. he has spent hours of his life in the past 5 years in different doctor offices...and tomorrow, he is having surgery and he will be the patient. i hate that i can't be there with him, as I have had at least 14 surgeries and could keep him company. of course mom will go and he will be fine, but after all he has done for me, i hate that i can't return the favor.

(pic-one day last year that dad was with me at the neurologist.)

Cigar box purse!

i got an early christmas gift i found on Etsy...a cigar box purse! i love it and it is all recycled stuff. it's perfect because i can't stuff too much in it, therefore i won't hurt myself carrying something too heavy! 

flying around the Milky Way

as a huge space/solar system buff, i recently bought Solar Walk (app). for under $3, now on sale for $1.99, i can fly around the milky way, slowly turning and watching the galaxy, stars, and planets pass by. it is amazingly therapy, and much cheaper ; ). it is an early christmas present...worth every penny!

given guilt

two days after thanksgiving, and guilt is given and anger is reached. i hate that i have to take medicine and it makes me knocked out. i hate that being sick is so unpredictable and doesn't care that halfway through thanksgiving day, the two previous busy (for my body) days take their toll and my body says 'no more'. fibromyalgia doesn't care that the day to give out isn't the day before thanksgiving or whatever big day-it just attacks. it leaves me feeling hurt, betrayed, guilty, angry, sad, and just depressed. it doesn't help that two days after i'm reminded of this, with crying from another. wow.

the colors of thanksgiving

the colors of my thanksgiving memories, 2011-in watercolors

third day fail

thanksgiving day, 2011. after 2 and 1/2 days, halfway through the third, i crashed. for a chronic sick person, not balancing out the events of holidays can leave you spent and done on the most important main day. halfway through the day i had to go upstairs and i laid down for just a minute and crashed. i couldn't wake up, make my body work, and left my family disappointed and upset with me. now on thanksgiving night, i'm in horrible pain, feeling totally guilty, and like the sick black sheep of the family. 

Nephew time!

Today my brother, his lovely wife, and two adorable boys came to see us. Jack (who is 6) and I played iPad games all day-his favorites were 'World of Goo' which of course he was so much more better than yours truly...I'm thinking he would make a great engineer as he loves math-also he loved the great 'Star Walk for iPad' and we searched for the Star War galaxies as we are both obsessed with Star Wars. We had so much fun.

I finally got to meet my new nephew, Charlie, who smiled at me the first time he saw me and laughed as I talked to him like I do my house rabbit, Chai. Why do we talk to babies like cute animals? Wait, why do we do that to animals? I don't think Chai bunny even knows what my real voice sounds like...so here are a couple of shots of me and Charlie-and of course I'll have loads more to come! Happy day before Thanksgiving.